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[kazimieras]

Display Name: kazitude
Profile Photo: it's just this dude
Notes: BACKDATED to a bit before the announcement of the Society takeover of Central City, just to make his upcoming placement slightly easier

what up it's ya boi dr kazemieras kent [who just misspelled his own name, what of it] & apparently working as a physician since i was 14 does NOT qualify me to live on my own according to the alliance & like laws & stuff without a lot of legal paperwork so they want to put me with a foster at least for now

so does anyone have like experience with that

they're giving me a couple placement options so i guess i have some choices but like am i probably still screwed orrr

Comments

cw: mention of abuse

[badbutsadboy]

i am better.

[It's not the ones who shot him that made him distrust adults first.]

don't listn to all the other people about the strets being safer. it's too hardf to be safe. esp in this wporld.

peopls have powrs and Guns. you can be hur t by adults on teh streest just like in private with Bad Parents.

[He wonders if he should say what he's thinking. Decides that if it helps another teen that he should. It's been nine months since he's gotten away from Belos and as far as he knows, his "uncle" is dead. It is still like an open wound, tender around the edges. But not an infected one now.]

[He also debates whether he should say this publicly but something...feels different after he got his memories back from the reality bubble. As painful as it was, seeing his life play out like a movie still put him partly in the sidelines, able to reflect far more than he had been when he'd lived it. Even as he'd experienced it all over again.]

[Some of the shame is gone. Some sense of the shame Belos should have felt is there. It helps, in a way, that Eda knows. It helps to think about how she reacted. How she treated him after, taking him gently by the hand to lead him to a home that so far has been safe.]

[But he should have expected that when someone like Luz loves her so much.]

[The decision to say something isn't agonizing. But the internal debate over whether to lock it or say it publicly is a brutal one, especially when he hasn't told Amity everything about being shot, but it might be best for it to be public, if it provides a space for people to offer to help or a similar perspective. And also so anyone else giving advice considers there's probably not as sure an answer here as it seems.]

[He really doesn't think it's smart advice.]

[(Boy, deciding what adults to trust is no joke, is it, though.)]

[So he's honest. He tries to be brave. It's always been easier behind a screen, anyway, ever since he got his scroll and started to open up to his friends on Penstagram.]

[That said, it takes him forever to write. He's still not a fast typer on his phone.]

I was hurrt by the person who rasied me. In a few differnt ways. it was really bad. i thought he was family. he didnt love me tho.

And i was hurt on the streets. i almost died both ways andfg am only alive bc of my friends.

every1 is wrong that u r autpomatically safert one way or another. u can bve hurt by adults eithr way. at home in secret. outside exposed. whther one is s afer or the other isa going to be different for anyone hurt bc everyone situation is differnet.

[He decides to get tactical here. Maybe just this once, the way he was raised, and how he was raised to think can be helpful.]

my advices is dont be unsfae on the street but donts 100% trust foster rparents. get help from some of us starfallen tpo be safe. like some of teh starfallen adultss ort teenbs can helpd surveil possiblr fostersr parents ahead of time. MAkes sire they're not bad before you go there. That there are No secrets.

if foster parets bad an its ultimatly not worth teh risk, see if starfallen adult is willgin to take you in. us othjre teens knw Some of the ADults and can maybe tekll youi if the that adult have ttreated us we ll. if we've beem safe alone wiwth them.

and if youi need help bc you're in ever in danger i would be wiling to he;p get you out. and i cadn bring my friends i kno w thy woulda help another starfallen our age. andf there are some adults i thionk i finaly trust that i know would hjelp you too. esp one of them.

she is safe. she wpuld make sure you get away to where you are also safe.

[He spends some time after writing just breathing through the anxiety of potentially feeling exposed.]

[Then hits send.]

private; throwaway references to abuse

[kazimieras]

[Honestly, Kaz was pretty taken aback when nearly everyone unanimously announced he'd literally be better off in the streets than being in foster care. Like, maybe he's naïve, but he thought that there's gotta be some good people out there, right? So it's cool to see that someone is giving him perspective that's not adamant and kind of has hope in it.

He takes it private though, because he's not sure what he wants to say publicly here.]

man, im sorry. that sounds shitty.

i feel like theres gotta be a middle ground right? at least where i can find out who im going to. i mean just reading about people isnt always enough, i know that, people can hide who they are on paper

[boy can people hide who they are. He thought he knew Experion, and he turned out to be evil. He thought he knew Spark, and she - well. He has regrets about ever asking her out.]

im not helpless anymore either. theres people with more power than me but i can also light stuff on fire & thats not nothing.

Re: private; throwaway references to abuse

[badbutsadboy]

thank you. he's dead and ive been away from him for a while now. it is getting better.

yes i think middle grounds is safest. think tactically

be careful tho even with powers .foster parents might have powers stoo tho dont forget. like maybe they are secret criminasl with powers. i have magic and still got shot when trying to be on the streett because one had pwoeers too.

so you have to be very ycareful no matter what.

It is best to haves plans and people ready to help if you need it.

[kazimieras]

yeah. ill seee what i can find.

idk i wish theyd just let me stay on my own. i was doing ok with the hotel.